Mike Miller tugged at his shirt, still soaked from a morning workout, and showed off his new tattoo.
"That's his name right there -- Mason Ace," he said. "That's my little buddy. Mason Ace Miller."
Miller rubbed across the new ink on his chest. It is a card, an ace, with "Truly Blessed" written over the top of it.
Mason is six weeks from being born. Miller is already making plans. Mason is expected to enter this world on Nov. 4 if everything goes as planned. By then, the child might be prepping himself for a 10-day NBA contract. Soon thereafter, Mason should be a two-sport star because his mother and Miller's fiancee, Jennifer Keene, is a former University of Florida volleyball player.
"My girl is more of an athlete than I am, so hopefully he'll get her genes," Miller says.
Whether Mason is a small forward or an outside hitter doesn't really matter. Miller and Keene have a bigger game plan -- to teach Mason right from wrong; to teach him the value of hard work; to teach him honesty and fairness and respect.
All that grown-up stuff.
Mike Miller is a man now. He is about to become a father. The leniency of adolescence has left him and will now be transferred to his son. Miller now takes on a higher responsibility, one even greater than showing that a skinny kid from South Dakota can make it to the NBA, even greater than trying to help the Orlando Magic rebuild and return to the NBA Finals.
"You always fear that you're not going to be a good dad and you're not going to teach him the right things," Miller says. "That's part of it. There are fears in basketball, too. You got to overcome those fears.
"You've got to understand that you've got more responsibility now. You are the father to something. I'm the father to my son. Everything I do off the court and on the court represents him. I think it's going to help me a lot. It'll be a stepping stone. I won't put so much pressure on myself on the court. I know I'll come home, and he'll still be happy with me."
Listen to Miller now. Hear the maturity. Hear the confidence, real confidence, not the trying-to-prove-I-belong variety. Hear the reality that now entrenches him.
Live the summer that Miller has lived. That's how to get this perspective. He has learned so much this summer. A three-month journey has taken him so far. From South Dakota to Shanghai, China, he has experienced and learned. From fledgling young basketball star to expectant father about to enter this third professional basketball season, he has grown and learned.
Miller opens his eyes now and everything makes sense. He no longer appears to be the promising young prospect who left Florida two years early and often looks trapped within his own ability. He no longer appears indecisive and struggling between who he thinks he is and who he should be on the court. And, most important, the grimace painted on his face during last season's playoffs is gone. He is healthy now. His left ankle has mended.
Miller is ready to show that he can be a consistent, dominant player in the NBA.
"I'm starting to figure it out," he says. "Coming in, I put a lot of pressure on making all of my shots and things like that. And now I'm starting to understand all the parts of this game. I'm not going to make every shot, even though I want to. Now, I've learned to get someone else a shot, or getting rebounds and doing other things like that is more important. This year, I think you're going to see that out of me. I'm going to create a lot more for teammates. I'm going to rebound a lot more. I'm going to score a lot more.
"I'm just excited because I'm starting to understand the whole aspect of the game. It's a learning process. It's taken me two years. And it will take me until I'm done before I really understand it. This year, I think the game seems like it's in slow motion. When I'm out here playing, it's like it's moving in slow-mo for me."
Painful start
Summer diary entry No. 1: RDV Sportsplex, May 1. The limp is so noticeable. And now there is a gash across his eyebrow to go with it. Mike is packing up for the summer, leaving with Udonis Haslem, his former teammate at the University of Florida. The Charlotte Hornets had finished off the Magic in four games a day earlier, literally beating up the Magic with their physical style. Miller, who was averaging 16.3 points and 4.7 rebounds before the left ankle sprain caused him to miss 14 of the final 20 regular-season games, scored 4.8 points per game in the Hornets series. He vows to get healthy and return to form next season. Whether it will be in a Magic uniform is the question.
Miller should get his name legally changed to "Michael Lloyd Miller Is He Going To Be Traded?"
Whenever there are trade rumors involving the Magic, Miller is sure to be included. Some of it is media speculation. Some of it is true. Some of it is an idea that another general manager or agent breathlessly floats at Magic GM John Gabriel and goes nowhere.
Nevertheless, Miller was sitting at home on June 26, draft night, wondering whether the Magic were trading him to Washington for the No. 11 pick and Jahidi White for the chance to keep Cypress Creek high schooler Amare Stoudemire in town. "He was really nervous around the draft," teammate and friend Tracy McGrady said.
Stoudemire wound up going No. 9 to Phoenix. There goes that one.
Then, Miller is about to go to Chicago for Marcus Fizer or Jamal Crawford or both. Or he's going to Atlanta, or Golden State or somewhere, anywhere. Pick a city.
Tom and Sheryl Miller, his mother and father, would always be asked where Mike would be playing next season by friends and other residents in their hometown of Mitchell, S.D., a town of 13,798.
For the second straight summer, Mike Miller listened and worried. Then, he grew up. He stopped listening and focused on improving his game. The trade talk has since silenced.
The Magic believe in Miller's talent. They say he has never been on the trading block. Then again, McGrady is the only player the Magic wouldn't trade, and Grant Hill will not be traded because he is injured.
But Miller is still here. The Magic want to build a core that Miller is very much a part of. If he improves, plays better defense and fits comfortably alongside McGrady and Hill, Miller could become the unstoppable third option that the Magic would be foolish to trade.
"I'm excited," he said. "You look at this team and look at what it's capable of doing. I think we have a chance to win a lot of games. And I want to be a part of that. I want to be a part of the team that goes to the Eastern Conference Finals and goes to the Finals. I know I want to be a part of those teams. But there's always going to be talk. I've gotten to the point where I've understood it. I've grasped it."
Home sweet home
Summer diary entry No. 2: Mitchell, S.D., June 16. He's home, at last. And he can concentrate on basketball, away from Orlando, away from the expectations and the speculation. It's family, a basketball and a gym. The simple life. It has always suited Mike, no matter how much he has changed and experienced. Now, he can rebuild his game. Coach said Miller needed to return in better shape and more confident in his abilities. That's what Miller is charged to do.
Miller dares anyone to outwork him. It's an open challenge. He hasn't found the man yet, and part of him hopes he does so that he can find reason to work even harder.
Magic Coach Doc Rivers has a good Miller story. In July, the night before teammate Pat Garrity's wedding in South Dakota, Miller rented a gym and shot jumpers late into the night. Word spread that Miller was in the gym, and 500 people showed up for his workout.
"He should've charged admission," Rivers said. "He could've gotten back the money he paid to rent the place."
Miller has had three workout sessions a day this summer. Last summer, he gained 15 pounds for strength. This summer, he has lost 10 pounds and reduced his body fat from 13 percent to less than 7 percent. He is leaner, quicker. He looks comfortable in his body.
The reason Miller works so hard goes beyond his will to push his basketball talent as far as it will go. He also fears evaporation of his skills. Wayne Hall, the personal trainer who works with Miller and McGrady, focuses as much on getting Miller to slow down as he does provoking him.
As much as Miller has always seemed motivated by those doubting his small town, near folk-hero existence, he also sometimes puts too much on himself. He is motivated by the possibility of failure, but that has repercussions. To know that failure exists means that fear is possible.
So Miller's confidence has never been as unbreakable as he lets on. He is prone to slumps like all basketball players, and he has a harder time understanding them because perfection is his standard.
Rivers calls Miller "a reluctant shooter," even though he has one of the prettiest jumpers in the NBA. He has yet to become the player who could go zero-of-seven in the first quarter and win the game in the fourth. Then there is another struggle. The Magic coaching staff wants Miller to use his fundamentals and shooting ability and become a more exact, polished player who plays a more sound game. Miller wants to play a more hip game, slashing and dunking and throwing pretty passes.
"I think Mike's next step is really understanding who he is," Rivers said. "It's nice that he can drive. It's nice that he has a post game. But I want him to shoot the ball."
Different world
Summer diary entry No. 3: Shanghai, China, Sept. 1. As crazy as basketball is to Mike sometimes, there are rewards. You get to go to China on adidas' dime, with Golden State forward Antawn Jamison, to make an appearance at the 2002 Asian Street Finals. Street basketball in China? Yes, Chinese basketball knowledge is not limited to Yao Ming. And, yes, the people have forgiven Mike for dunking over their own Wang Zhizhi last season.
Everything is starting to make sense.Jennifer is expected to have her labor induced Nov. 4 so that Miller will be there to see their son born and not miss any games.
Miller can see this summer's work. He gets compliments from Jamison as the two venture around Shanghai, uneasy about drifting too far because of the language barrier in this foreign land and all the other uncertainties. Life isn't the same here. Miller can feel the Communist influence. He has a sense that people are not as free. He sees poverty and overpopulation, and it hits him harder than it would in the States. Thousands of miles away, there are problems. Everywhere, there are problems.
"It was just different," Miller says of Shanghai, located on the coast of the East China Sea. "You see a different way of life. They live so much different than us. It's something good to see, I think. For me, it was one of those things that put in a little bit of a reality check, saying, 'Thank you for what I've got.' "
Miller realizes what he has. He has a woman he loves, a woman he wants to marry next summer. She will give him his first child in November. Mason will never have to worry about money. Miller is a basketball player who is noticeable, who people think and wonder about. He has the talent to become an NBA all-star. He doesn't have to get to that level in one season, or one game, or one shot. There is time. He just has to work and comprehend. Slow down, and watch the game get slower.
Knock off that chip on your shoulder and be free.
"I've had it great as far as the situations I've been in," Miller says. "Now, have I had a lot of doubters? Of course. I think a lot of people have doubters. That's for them to do and for me to prove. Everyone's going to have their opinions. At the end, when you're standing tall, hopefully their opinion changes. But if it doesn't, you know you can look in the mirror and say, 'I've done all I can. I believe in myself.' "
Man, oh, man. Mike Miller just might be ready for fatherhood, after all.